Dream # 1: I could create a whole blog dedicated to the subject of my husband. Joe walked into my life one day 5 years ago and I am a better person for it. My whole life I have wanted a man that I am just head over heels madly in love with. A man that gets better and better with every day. Guess what.... I have him. I have him and I can seriously not believe how blessed I am by him. Daily I find myself just in awe about how blessed I am with my husband. He is my best friend, my biggest cheerleader and the best teammate God could have ever created for me. I could go on and on but in a nutshell, I am sharing my life with the man of my dreams.
Dream # 2: And... to put a big fat cherry right on top of it all, I'M ABOUT TO BE A MOTHER! 37 years old now and around age 31 I began to struggle with the real possibility that being a mom may not be a real possibility for me. I was getting older and year after year seemed to tic by with no movement in that direction. Throughout my life, I have spent copious amounts of time imagining what it would be like to be a mommy, what my baby would look like, how amazing it would be to look into my husband's eyes and then gaze over to my child's eyes and simply feel completely full; content. What it would be like to have it all. However, eventually, I got to the point where I had accepted that this may not be my lot in life.
But, one day, not so long ago I drove to the store and picked up a pregnancy test. I had been telling my husband for two weeks that I was just completely exhausted and I thought I had breast cancer because they hurt so bad. After all these years of dreaming about being a mother, when the signs were flashing like neon lights right into my eyes, I was as blind as a bat. My husband nonchalantly said for those two weeks that I was pregnant but, chances of that were slim as we were not trying yet. So, after two weeks I decided I'd go waste that hard earned money on a test to confirm what I already knew - not pregnant.
I got home, popped into the bathroom and then, with no apprehension looked at the test to see that final confirmation. I remember the moment so clearly. You know how they say that sometimes it seems as though the world stands still? Well, the world stood still - real still.
I was staring at a positive pregnancy test!
And so it began.
